Happy Birthday To Me.

30 today.....yep I'm 30 today.

I had an amazing birthday dinner with my friends and family up at my parents on Saturday. Brian organized the whole thing with my favorite meal of salmon and oysters and clams with salads and cheesy garlic bread. My sister and my mom rocked the kitchen filled it with food and decorated the heck out of the place. My MIL set out the most wonderful sundae bar you ever did see, Edaleen ice cream, with twinkies, chocolate covered doughnut, oreos, berries, chocolate sauce and the like and of course whip cream out of the can, it was real goood...double fist pump good. May it also be noted the Josher stole all of the twinkies out of my sundae and made guttural noises of complete joy while eating.

So I want to say one more time of the interwebs.THANK YOU. My family is the best.


Let be known also that I love this man with every 30 year fiber of my being. He is the ultimate companion in every way.

One of the things you may know about me is that am the biggest sentimental sap in the world. I love tradition, family, old stuff, brand new babies and the like. In saying this over the years my grandmothers have been so loving to pass pieces of jewelry and the like to me and my sister and I hold them very close to my heart. They are the best because they are classic and go with anything the quality is usually different than anything you can purchase now, yet the overriding factor is that usually they are items that they have had for decades and I can remember them wearing them, I can remember each of them each time a wear a piece. I can remember being a little girl and sitting on my Grandma's bed surrounded by her jewelry boxes and being allowed to try each one on. I have always wanted to have a certain piece of my own for as long as I could remember...this may all seem very materialistic to you I assure its not about having, its about sharing, its about passing on, its sentimental.

For as long as I can remember I have wanted a pearl necklace. Not just any pearl necklace I had a specific one in mind. And about 10 years ago I told Brian when I get old and he needs to get me something really special I would love a pearl necklace in which I described to him in depth.

Well you can probably guess what I got for my birthday and its not because I'm old he has assured me it is because 30 happens once and he loves me.
It's exactly how I had envisioned.

I feel spoiled.

Finally my thoughts on turning older.

I have said it before and I will say it again, I love the idea of growing older. I love wrinkles, I love experiencing life, I love this life....its all pretty great.

I felt like kind of a freak this year in turning 30 and not caring, everyone says its horrible and blah blah blah.

Heres how I feel about saying goodbye to my 20's.

The 20's comprised the greatest 10 years of my life. I learned who I was and wanted to be. I proved lies that I had believed, to be wrong. I set goals and met them. I found my calling, started a business and have been blessed by it. I had two babies and they are not only healthy but happy. I married the love of my life and he continues to be just that. My 20's were exactly what I wanted them to be and in that I feel content to move on. Don't get me wrong there were plenty of hard times, even bad times,times of loss and great sorrow, disappointment and tiny bit of what some would refer to as failure but the blessings that have been bestowed upon me overshadow all of that. I am a firm believer that life can be what you want to be if you hold on tight and allow God to show the way. Contentment is the key to true happiness in this life. Receiving blessings and loving them and cherishing them, rather then wanting more just waiting for whatever God wants to serve up next has been a strong theme in the last 10 years. Its when I want for more than what I have at the moment or allow myself to be drug down by outside influences when things get grey.

So 30 ain't got nothing on. My God is so much bigger than a number. And old doesn't have to be a negative thing, it just mean more life.

BAM:)