Monday, February 21, 2011

The Art of Discernment

I have been learning much about this lately. I feel tested. Actually I do not feel as much as I know with every fiber of my being that I am being tested. I know that God is testing me. We are having a round and round again. Its all good. And if I felt as if I could write it all down while keeping the tears within my noggin and still keep my vision in hopes of seeing what I am typing I would, however that is not possible at the moment.

So once again I will share what I am thinking about the topic.

Discernment is something you start to learn from an early age. However I think in the younger years it can be clouded and blended together with self control, knowing better, and the difference between right and wrong. However, as an adult it is seems to be so much more complicated and it gets harder the older I get.

It can be leaving out part of the conversation because if you really love someone sometimes holding back a bit means guarding their heart. It can be leaving a job that you love because you know that no matter how hard you try to do it all there is only one job in this world that really matters to you and if you can't do that one job 100% nothing else matters. It can be financial. It can be relational. It can be spiritual. It can be accepting or rejecting opportunities. It can mean walking through one door to watch it close, only to see a cracked window up ahead.

That's all I need sometimes is a cracked window to get the point. To catch a tiny glimpse of what God has in store in this life and for the life here after.

Once again I am a thinker. I have a brain that does not take a break. This discernment thing takes a lot more effort. And in the mastering of it, it is strengthening my faith because sometimes you just don't know what He wants you to do. Sometimes you don't know the answer. I like the faith scary as it is I like the faith part.

However having to use heavenly discernment is getting tiring. I think in all of it I am being stretched once again for a greater purpose. In the last couple of months I have been called to much greater and bigger things than I ever felt were possible. Things change moment to moment, hence the reason for the ten minute plan.

I am so thankful for a God that is present, that is with me in every moment. I am so thankful for the peace only He can wash over me after I discern what in the world I am supposed to do with this life He has given. I am so thankful that even though I have gone through weeks of wonder He can clear it up in a single morning.

I have been waiting for clarity and He sent it and with it came peace. And with that came smile crying something I have mastered and after the cry I felt free to continue with the path that I am on. The path before me once again seems smooth and easy. Although I know He is not finished:) That is the best part.

1 comment:

Jeff and Andrea Ashmore Family said...

If I had all day I would just sit and read your writing. You are so insightful and inspiring and you a very thought provoking writer.
Thanks for this post. I agree 100% and I can relate.
It's amazing how wonderful it is, all these tests we must face. It's amazing that we can do it, and we will, through Him.