Monday, February 28, 2011

The Beginning-The Middle- The End

Beginning of last week - Peace

Middle of last week - Devastation

End of the week - Revelation

This was my week last week. It was a roller coaster of emotions. I am not sure that I have ever been so confused, angry, sad, relieved and did I mention confused in my life.

The weekend brought some good stuff though. I was able to enjoy a Women's Retreat with some women from Bible Study. It was wonderful to be far away from reality, where I could focus on what was important and relax as well. On Saturday we had a speaker and she was wonderful. Her message was focused on the bond we need to have with God, in personal relationship with Him. The entire message was great, but as usual I think everyone has a different part that sticks. I love how God is able to speak to each of us individually when we are sitting in a room with many others. The part I loved was a reference she made using a song. The song was, "Turn Your Eyes Upon Jesus." I can't begin to tell you the comfort I felt in the reminder of those five words.

It is so easy to become distracted from my ability to find peace in just resting in His presence. I get so distracted by what is going on I forget I can find Him right where I am at in the moment that I need Him. I forget to call for help.

I think the most devastating part of the news I was given on Wednesday was the fact that I had found so much peace at the beginning of the week. I felt robbed. So quickly I forgot the peace that I had, so quickly I forgot that if I asked I could keep that peace. So quickly I forgot that I could ask for the comfort I needed. I forgot to keep my eyes on Him. And when I did that I was distracted from the truth and blinded by lies.

I need to remember that my time on this earth is so short compared to the eternity that I will get to spend in heaven. The problems and trials I experience here are just stepping stones to get me to the finish line. And someday there will be nothing that can try and get in between me and my love for HIM!

This song is one of my favorites. I have been singing it my head and humming it in my step since Saturday. It is a comfortable reminder of where my focus needs to be.

Turn Your Eyes Upon Jesus

Turn your eyes upon Jesus
look full in His wonderful face
and the things of earth will grow strangely dim
in the light of His glory and grace

2 comments:

Julie said...

Oh, I thought that those words of that song were especially powerful also. I'm so sorry you had to deal with devastating news, but I am thankful that you were refreshed at retreat. So was I!

dee said...

Amen Jessica. The image of Kristen holding little Kate's face in her hands and making her look her in the eye was so powerful. I know my Heavenly Father needs to do that to me sometimes too. If only I would rest in his peace more often,life would be so much...more. Thanks for the reminder.